Seemingly alone in the World...

[racingbelle]

I stared at the stream in front of me. Then I sighed. Everything in my life was wrong. I had a 'mate' who didn't love me, I would have to kill him but I loved him, and I couldn't be deputy. Icestar doesn't know the real me. No one in the Clan does. I don't even know the real me anymore! If only everything was normal and maybe there was a chance that Icestar would have choose me as deputy and not Irisbreeze. Oh StarClan why me?! I yowled. Maybe I should just go into the stream and then lay down on the rocks and try to die, like I did when I found out Tigerfire was the evil fire. There was no Hazelcloud to save me now. I thought about it for a moment and then dismissed it. No. I couldn't. I had to show everyone how wrong they were about me. I had to shine down here in this world before I moved on to StarClan. I had to make cats down here remember me. The real me. Besides who else would save the clans from FireClan? I sighed again and tears rolled down my cheeks. My life was just one big failure. My life's dream was shattered. I was nothing...

[lightningstreak]

Hazecloud watched her with sad eyes. She knows that shes upset about everything. He stayed invisable as he appeared behind her and slowly walked towards her. He sat down next to her, looking at her with sad eyes. It hurts him so much when he sees her upset and crying. He promised that he would stay by her side for good until its time for him to go after the prophecy is finished. He became visable and started ti lick her tears away. "I know its hard on you now Fireflight, but remember this. I'm always there for you, to help guide you through your hard times. Even if im not there where you can see me, just know that ill always be in your heart, to comfort you when your sad and help guide you through the dark paths you face. Im not saying this stuff to make you love me more then a friend, just telling you this for you can rely on me for help, guideness and companionship." He said softly as he looked into her soft, teary eyes.

[racingbelle]

I tried to stop crying but I couldn't. Everything was just so wrong! I felt someone licking away my tears and knew that it was Hazelcloud when the cat spoke. Why did I have to be the cat that went through all this? I felt Squirrelflight's comforting persence. She knew better than to speak at now but I could smell faint traces of her scent and feel her pelt brushing againest mine. I listened to Hazelcloud carefully the words going in and out of my head. "I know." I said shakily. "I can't do this. Because of this whole prophecy I can't be deputy. No one knows who I am. The all think I'm weird! I've changed and it hasn't been for the better! I just want to be a normal cat!" I cried, really crying this time. I flopped down on my side, willing Starclan to take me away from this crual world.

[Black Flora]

Striked paws drummed soundlessly against the ground of Iceclan's territory. Hunting had been surprisingly good considering how close it was getting to Leafebare. The tabby she-cat wasn't going to take all the prey today though, it would be a waste. So she left some animals alive for further days. The prey was buried until the deputy came back to retrieve it. But for now a little border check might be good, just a minor one and then later a proper patrol. Dark eyes spied two cats and one was wailing. The lithe warrior's gait slowed to a stop, both ears pointed attentively forward. Hesistantly she stepped forward and realized who it was, Fireflight and Hazelcloud but the good fire was on the ground... crying. A few feet away, Irisbreeze stayed quiet, feeling awkward.

[Stella]

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[lightningstreak]

Hazecloud kneeled down next to the fire pelt she-cat. "I know that this is hard on you Fireflight. Look at me, i had to fullfill a prophecy back in the old clans a very long time ago and no one remembers me. You have friends here that will remember you and tell about you saved the clans. I have to go for a little bit. Bluestar, Firestar, Blackstar, Onestar, and Mistystar wants to talk to me about something. I'll be back soon ok. And if you need any more company, just say my name and ill be there." He said as he gave her a lick on his head to comfort her. He moved his tail in a circle as fog started to surround his paws. When the fog completely covered his paws, he disappeared, like a ghost, without a trace.

[racingbelle]

"You don't get it either.'' I said softly as he disappeared. The tears stopped. and I gathered my paws under me. I sniffed the air looking for some prey. Two cats! I thought miserible. Let it be some FireClan warriors! I'll rip them to shreads! The fur on my pelt started to bristle. "Come out! I know your there! Both of you!" I said firmly. I stood my legs trembling. What's the point? I thought. Who would ever listen to me. I laid down again, ready to spring back up if anyone dared show their face. I began to think of what it would be like if I just disappeared off the face of the Earth. No one would miss me. They wouldn't even care. I wondered how life would be if I never showed up in the forest. I wondered what would my life be like right now if the prophecy hadn't taken place. Maybe I would be deputy...that was all I ever wanted was to be on top. To lead a Clan. Now that would never happen...it was all because of Brackenclaw! I wish that he never shown up in the forest! I wish that Icestar could have chosen me. Was it just that one little thing with Brackenclaw that put everything off or maybe it was something else. Tears started to prick my eyes again as I thought about my shattered hopes and dreams.

[Black Flora]

Dark amber eyes are disbelieving as the cat called Hazelcloud disappeared in a cloud of fog. That was certainly not what she had expected. Seeing as her sister was a medicine cat, it didn't shock her too much. When Fireflight noticed that she was here, and started yowling for them to come out Irisbreeze became confused. She was standing right here, a few feet away. Both? Now the deputy noticed that another cat was around too, but downwind so she couldn't scent him or her out. Confidently, Irisbreeze approached the angry fiery cat. It might be a bad idea, but she'd know soon enough.

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[racingbelle]

I jumped up in the air as I heard a cat approaching. Fury was gleamed in my eyes and my fur bristled. Then I saw that one cat was Irisbreeze, one of the last cats on Earth I wanted to see, and Barkpelt. Oh just my Clanmate erm and the...deputy. The fur on my pelt flattened and the bright fury in my eyes faded. "Hi." I said flatly. Then I was alarmed. No cat knew about Hazelcloud. Well Icestar sorta did but not really. "How much did you see?!" I asked alarm growing in my voice. My misery was forgotten for a few moments before it came back again. Fear was over taken by sadness and I laid down again, my eyes glazing over as I went to a far away place that no one but me could see. I was happy there, just a kit who was playing in the forest that I wandered through. Could I ever feel needed or happy again? It seemed not. It seemed as if I wasn't wanted that I would always be trapped in darkness that haunted me now days...

[Black Flora]

A brown figure dropped down in between me and the good fire cat, Fireflight. The ginger cat bristled, her ears flattened. Surprised at this behaviour, Irisbreeze mewed something quietly.

"Calm down Fireflight."

The cat did calm down but if it was by the authority or realization, the dark tabby would never know. The tension in the air dimmed a little, but it wasn't by much. Her greeting was flat, as if she had nothing to live for. Then her next sentence was filled with alarm. Mood swings enough to give whiplash.

"Enough to know that Hazelcloud isn't normal..."

The dark eyed tabby didn't add the second part, enough to know that you are very very sad. The warrior slumped down to the ground again, Irisbreeze just had to say something that would've helped her when she was an apprentice.

"Well what kind of warrior are you? Giving up so easily."

[Stella]

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[racingbelle]

For a few moments I lost myself in that place but was quickly awoken by Irisbreeze's words. "Maybe I'm not a Warrior any more. Who needs me? I'm insignificant to the world. That one thing that I've strived for, that one hope that has kept me going all this time is gone, shattered. You wouldn't know how everything feels. Nothing goes right in my life! Always things are taken away from me or shattered lost! I can't go on like this! It's too much! When I found IceClan I though that maybe I had a chance of doing right, making it to the top. Things got even better when I learned that IceClan had no deputy. Then everything came crashing down when I learned about the phrophey, that I was the cat to kill the evil fire and even more when I learned who it was! But all that time I held onto that single dream and hope that Icestar would choose me as a deputy. When sadness overwhelmed me, I thought about how great my life would be after all this was over that I could finally live my dream. I could finally be normal. Now there's nothing to cling onto. What happens after I defeat the evil fire huh?! What happens then?! I could never go on like nothing ever happened. I can never reach the top now..." I said with mix emotions. Anger and sadness showed through the most. I wondered how these cats would react. I had never told any any of this before. I felt a small weight being lifted off of me but it was hardly noticeable. I laid my head on my paws thinking, wondering.

[lightningstreak]

"Thats not true and you know it Fireflight." A voice said out of nowhere. Hazecloud then appeared in front of Irisbreeze and Barkpelt, not caring about the stare they're giving him. He lays down in front of her, making her look him in the eyes. "You may think that all your dreams and hopes are gone but they aren't. You don't really know whats going to happen after you defeat the dark fire. I've always wanted to be leader of Shadowclan but the old leader choice the cat that i hated. *sighs* After i heard that she became deputy, i that, i fell into great depression and killed myself on a thunder road by a car. After that, i found myself in Starclan. I know the exact pain your feeling. Shadowclan grieved for me and all i could do was watch with sadness. When i was in Starclan, i could have a mate, kits, become a deputy or anything. I was just a cat helping give hints to my clan... I dont want you going through the same thing i did Fireflight." He said as he licked her head gently. Not caring about the tear drop slowly sliding down his cheek.

[Black Flora]

Irisbreeze listened to the fiery cats sob story, the self pity, the sadness. Everything. The more she listened, the harder she became. Even before she was going to think about saying something, she knew what she was going to say. Fireflight was centered all on herself, thinking that things went oh so well for everyone but herself. It was a sad sight that was, a warrior being that self pitying. After Fireflight had done her ranting, it seemed everyone was ignoring Barkpelt, Irisbreeze purred in amusement, sarcastically of course.

"That's where you go wrong. Self pity doesn't help. Anger doesn't either. You think everyone else's life is easy? Well you're wrong there too. You are not the only cat in the world with worries and losses. I suggest you think about that too."

Irisbreeze told the cat without softness in her voice, this wasn't a time that she could handle being soft. The other cat appeared again, which, at the moment, was not surprising. Starclan cat. Who knew?

"And if you think that you have nothing to hold onto then obviously you never deserved to be deputy. If your clan means nothing to you."

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